absent mind.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011


I've been away again for a long time, seems like I do that a lot. Sorry! But I had a good reason :) went to Surinam for a short 'holiday'. My mom wants to set up a foundation and move to there :( I will miss her to dead, but I'm glad for her. It makes her happy, she's way to stressed over here.
Anyway another reason why I've been away is because I had another admission test for a fashion school. I choose to do this, because the school is closer and it's part-time, so I would be able to work next to it or do another course. I'm still not sure what to do though. My assignment was to make a collage about the developments I see taking place in the world right now. And another collage about how these developments will evolve into fashion in 2015. These are what I made:

Developments in 2011
(Technology, consumption, war, natural disasters. Development vs. destruction)

Fashion in 2015
(click to zoom)

I was suppose to get the result between one or two weeks, but I received an email the day after! And I got accepted :D I was so happy, but confused too, because I sort of decided to study Business Administration. And I only did the admission test because I had already applied for it. So I don't know what to do now... People tell me I'm really talented and this is my 'thing'. But Fashion doesn't really give you a secure future. I'm even thinking about doing both, but I don't know if I could handle that. Plus I'd also like to work next to studying. But if I do both, I can't work too... ugh I don't know, I'm so clueless right now...
But lol just wanted to share my work :)


Thursday, May 12, 2011


The IOU Project is online. The IOU Project has a great concept, the clothes are "handmade in Europe using fabrics handwoven in India. What I like about the IOU Project is that you can see who are involved in the making of the clothes and the people involved get what they deserve. On top of that you can give them a hand by helping them sell clothes! You could earn a bit yourself with it too.

The designs of the clothes are full of colour and playful. Because of it's unique design and print the products are definitely an asset to your wardrobe. And when you buy an item, you don't only buy an incredible piece of clothing, you're also helping someone less fortunate.

So definitely check out the IOU Project shop ~

future fashion.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

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If you like fashion, it's important to be unique and what better way is there to achieve this than having unique pieces?

NOT JUST A LABEL recently launched their new website. With a content of unique and limited items, from over 5,000 emerging designers, NJAL is a great way to discover the newest designers out there, plus score some extravagant and beautiful items!

adicto a las compras.

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

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Don't leave me alone with the internet and online fashion stores, it drives me crazy.

outfit #5; back to aztec.

Saturday, April 23, 2011


geometric patters are trending this year.

1. Aztec Clutch - BCBGeneration | 2. Candela Aztec Beaded Sandals - Saks Fifth Avenue | 3. Stolen Girlfriends Club Spike Dress in Digital Aztec Print - asos | 4. House of Harlow 1960 Leather Tribal Triangle Pendant Necklace in Coral - SINGER22 | 5. Alexandra Beth Aztec Leather Bracelet in Brown - Max & Chloe

lol for me.

Friday, April 22, 2011


This shirt from Topshop really made me "lol", so I decided to buy it.
(free international shipping 'till the 26th, so be fast!)

beach necessity.

Monday, April 18, 2011

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Summer is coming along and you know you can't go to the beach without a bag as your accompany.

1. Star Mela Embroidered Pouch Bag - Urban Outfitters | 2. Mangifera Straw Tote - ANTHROPOLOGIE | 3. Susu Bag - shopbop | 4. Addison Bucket Bag / Backpack - shopbop | 5. Palisadoes Hobo Bag - ANTHROPOLOGIE

DRESS me up.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011


As I mentioned in my Haul post, I went to a Sample & Sale event. Unfortunately it was more like an outlet, but I still managed to score some pretty dresses. I bought a black Diesel dress with pockets (the dress is really black, so I edited the pic a bit so you can see the pockets, that's why the pic is of such bad quality). I also bought a dark blue sequin dress, it was only €20,- and probably the best buy! And last, I bought a 'butterfly' dress. I love it very much, it's just not the perfect fit for me, but definitely my favourite buy :)
click to enlarge

Diesel | Mydress | Full Circle

Also, how do you like my new layout? :D

Something really bad happened too though, I lost my camera at the event and it wasn't at the lost & found (two days later!).... :'( my pinky camera will be very missed.

Je voudrais un bouton!

Friday, April 01, 2011

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How cool is that?!

Empty wallets and full houses.

Tuesday, March 29, 2011


I have been absent for a while (again) and in the meanwhile, because either I'm lazy or busy, or sometimes even both. But mostly because I don't know what to post about. Being away for so long made me have a lot to post about though.
First of all, I got a lot of great new items! It was my birthday and I got a lot of stuff, I also bought some stuff from the internet. My wallet is in pain right now. But as if that's not enough, I will be going to a Fashion Sample & Sale event with a friend! Can't wait (my wallet can)!!!

From my parents and brother I got 2 DVD's (Inception & Clash of the Titans, I'm a movie junkie!), and long sleeve shirt (to sleep in, I don't like pyjamas, I wear jogging clothes xD), painting stuff (as a joke), an iPod Touch!!, Gucci Guilty perfume and bathing soap, Helena Rubenstein facial wash, red Vans, a H&M blazer and also money (not on pic). I didn't even expected to get anything, so yeah, I'm happy with every single thing I got. I love my parents and bro to dead :D

Me and my friends all have our birthdays in March, so we also bought gifts for each other. They gave me an iPod Touch silicone cover, Sephora grey eyeshadow, Sephora blush, Sephora nail polish correcter, Claire's red and transparent matte nail polish and Disney princesses pen and stickers (it's an inside joke).

I also bought some stuff in stores and from Cherry Culture. I don't have much make up, so I thought buying some, since there were sales on Cherry Culture and in stores here for Sephora. I bought NYX round lipstick (colours: 522 circe, 536 eros, 565 B52 and 635 doll), Amuse ultra fine natural lipliner, Amuse light brown soft eyeliner, Amuse eyeshadow palette and I got a cherry culture bubble gum lipbalm for free! I also bought a smokey eye brush from H&M, Sephora's smoothing primer and a beige nail polish from Pieces.

And of course I always need to buy stuff from ASOS, I can never let go a free shipping opportunity! I got a black and a white (with American heartshaped flag) square shirts and a Victoria Beckham style Blazer. I love the blazer, unfortunately it's a bit too big.

My ASOS Power Shoulder Tailored Boyfriend Blazer

Ugh, weird lightening in this pic, gotta love filters hehe. / Wearing NYX's 635 DOLL.

I finally got my new glasses!! I chose Dior glasses, most glasses are too big for my head -__- this one is a bit too big too... but I still like it. I don't know if I will wear it outside though.

I also bought two pair of shoes a while ago, but I'm too lazy to make pics, so those will be posted later!
Also if anyone would like to see a review on any product I bought, please tell me and I might do a review on it! I'm certainly gonna do a review on the NYX lipsticks ;)

Stay tuned~

Men's jewellery.

Wednesday, March 09, 2011

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I always like it when men wear jewellery, not too much of course, but it's nice to see even men think about fashion. So it's interesting to see what male fashion has to offer.

The jewellery by Bevel are dark, but have a touch of innocence. It reminds me of Anakin in episode 3 from Star Wars, when he was struggling to choose between the Jedi and the Dark side.

Via; Coûte Que Coûte

isn't she a beauty?

Friday, February 18, 2011


I notice I'm getting a shoe fetish... and I always fall in love with shoes by Jeffrey Campbell
(via; ModCloth)

I need new glasses.

Saturday, February 12, 2011


And I want one of these :) I'm leaning towards the Original Mayfarer for now.
But I don't know where to buy these :(

I'm in love.

Friday, February 11, 2011


lol. His voice is charming. And he's darn cute as well, why the hell is he just 18?!?!

outfit #4; casual friday.

Friday, February 11, 2011


1. Lobster merino wool sweater by Markus Lupfer - net-a-porter | 2. Drawstring Lounge Pants by Michael Kors - Saks Fifth Avenue | 3. Leaf Cuff Bracelet - Kohl's | 4. AEO Rugged Backpack - American Eagle Outfitters | 5. Vans Palisades Vulc W - Zappos


Tuesday, February 01, 2011


Just relieving some stress by writing it off.

So once again I'm caught in a dilemma. It's like I can't do anything right. Last September I started on university with Fiscal Law as my major. However, the first year is pretty much common law. And till today, I still don't know why I actually chose to study Fiscal Law. When I was younger, I did thought of myself studying Economy and Law together. But as I grew older my love for fashion grew as well. But since I was on pre-university education, I did not want to go to college (over here there is a difference between college and university, university is on a higher level, fashion is on a lower level). I also had to redo two classes, so I was 19/20 before I could start with uni.

Before, in one of the summer holidays during high school I went to Japan (and Korea), where I visited a fashion university. I was sold and I was convinced that I wanted to study there. However, I also liked anthropology and I believed I could combine it with fashion. So when I finished high school I chose anthropology as my major and Japanese as my minor. Because in order to study in Japan, you'll need to know the language. But I found out I couldn't take Japanese as my minor and after one day I didn't like anthropology. So I switched to Japanese as major. However, after two weeks I already hated it. So I switched to Korean, because I liked the music, entertainment and the fashion. But I didn't do shit and I kinda failed. Kpop kinda died on me too and there were only 6 other (lame) students, so Korean wasn't really cut out for me either. But fashion didn't fail on me.

I convinced myself I quit Korean in order to study Fashion. So I entered the admittance procedure, but in the meanwhile my grandpa fell ill back in Surinam. And my mom went to him to take care of him. I finished up my work and sent it in. My mom came back for my birthday, but I totally ruined my birthday because I was so emotional. My grandpa worsened and my mom arranged for him to come back. He went to the hospital and I visited him everyday. In the meanwhile I got the letter of my work and I got through to the next round. Which I had to do another assignment for. But then we heard my grandfathers illness was incurable, so I postponed the assignment and visited him everyday. It was really hard on us, especially for my mom. I tried to be a good daughter and help her whenever I could. The situation in my family (I always mean relatives by this) didn't made it any easier. Most of my aunts and uncles had have some sort of resentment against my mother, so they tried to kind of annoy her or something. It was a really awkward time and honestly I try to forget all about it. After weeks of horror, my grandpa died and it didn't matter how sad I was, I had to finish my assignment.

After finishing the assignment, I had to study for an economy test I had to take in order for my admittance. But I couldn't put myself to studying for it, so I made the test without actually working hard for it. Then I received my letter of acceptance and I was happy. I had the meeting with my class etcetera and I wasn't really fond of my class. The large majority of my class was white, and don't get me wrong I am NOT AT ALL racist! I just grew up with mostly foreigners like myself and in my family there's a lot of negativity about whites (but not in a racist kind of way!). So to me, it's just that I don't know how to act around them. And there's also that, I'm not really great in making friends, so I was kind of dumbfounded and felt like I didn't belong there. And the fact that I was still so sad about my grandpa made me really confused. I never lost someone I loved before, so I had (and still have) no idea how to deal with it. Going to fashion school just didn't seem important any more.

In the meanwhile, I still had to get back the results of my economy test. And I knew I blew it, I just secretly hoped the results would equal to that. And they did and I couldn't retake the test, because I took the test on the latest available date. But after mailing with the school, I could retake the test. But rethinking everything didn't want me to retake it, instead I chose to study something else. And I only had a few days to change from college/university. And I still wanted to do something with fashion, my dream is to have my own business (in fashion). So I though something with economy would be a good choice. But since I didn't take economy in high school, this wasn't an option. My cousin had just finished Fiscal Law and she always said it was fun, and I have another cousin that chose to major in Fiscal Law as well. So I though, maybe it's good to choose for that if you want to start a business. And my other cousin (which I never had contact with before btw, until my grandpa died) was going to major Fiscal Law as well, so I thought I would at least know one person. When my grandpa was still in the hospital I was really close with her. But there was all this stuff going on with family, so I had kind of ignored her lately. So it was weird between us. Luckily I still made at least one friend, lol.

But after months, it turned out I still wanted to study fashion. And I had all kind of ideas combining fashion with Fiscal Law. But when I told my mom, she wasn't as exited as me. She got angry, because when I started with Fiscal Law, I promised her I would not stop. And to her it felt like I broke my promise. And I got angry, because she got angry. And we didn't spoke for days. And it made me think, she was right. But I couldn't ignore that I want to study fashion. And I didn't go to classes for a week, and then Christmas and New Year's past and I still felt the same. My mom went to Surinam again and I had some exams which I pretty much ruined. And last week I've been thinking.

What do I really want?! Last couple of years I keep starting things but I never finish. And I hate that about myself. It makes me wonder if it's because of myself or my choices. Am I just incapable of studying or did I made the wrong decisions? Why do I want to quit Fiscal Law, because I don't like it, because I want to go to fashion school, or because I'm failing. It makes me question myself and feel like a total failure, like I'm too stupid for university (which I'm not??!). I really don't know if I should quit or not, it feels wrong, just because of the word quitting and because my parents already invested money into law school (btw law school isn't more expensive than other school over here!). But on the other hand I tried convincing myself I like fiscal law, but reality caught up with me. I like fashion better, I know it. But if I go to fashion school, will I be able to finish it? Won't I just quit again after 6 months, or fail under the pressure that it brings? Fashion school isn't easy, it brings a lot of stress and I know I can't handle too much stress. But does it mean I should take the easier road? But what is the easier road? Quitting law school? Or fashion school?

I give myself a deadline to make a decision, two weeks should be enough, I think. I will wait until I get the grades of my last exams. Those will probably tell me where I stand and what I'm (not) capable of.

*Sigh* fml.

outfit #3; alexander mcqueen.

Friday, January 28, 2011


How about the Descent!

Thursday, January 27, 2011


beginning of mid-season today

My excitement for it is abnormal...

We love sales!

Thursday, January 27, 2011


Especially if it's from ASOS~

1. Pieces Zip And Chain Bag | 2. Micro Mini Skirt | 3. Double Finger 'Cross' Ring | 4. Barry M Lipstick (Peach)
Purchased them all via ASOS

outfit #2; on sale.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011


1. Industrial Revolution Bag (€13,-) - ModCloth | 2. BLACK BRAVE Stud & Zip Detail Shoeboot (€115,-) - ASOS | 3. Lipsy One Shoulder Jewelled Dress (€30,-) - Lipsy | 4. Filigree Stone Ring (€4,15) - Topshop | 5. Wide Hammered Cuff (€7,40) - Amazon

c'est l'amour.

Sunday, January 16, 2011


the dark side of your mind.

Saturday, January 15, 2011


I love Natalie Portman and Mila Kunis is starting to grow on me more and more too, I want to see Black Swan!
pics snatched from W Magazine

outfit #1; spring awaits.

Saturday, January 15, 2011


So this I something new I want to try out, a new outfit every week. I'm trying to make my blog more interesting, if you guys like this then I'll continue

1. High Low Moto Vest - bebe | 2. CARYSSA - Steve Madden | 3. Pretty Stacking Ring Set - ASOS | 4. LaROK The Twice The Trouble Skirt - ZAPPOS | 5. Feather Chain Necklace - Forever21

can I go on a holiday please.

Friday, January 14, 2011


so pretty, Dominican Republic - Casa Kimball

buckle up!

Friday, January 07, 2011


1; Bjork Buckle Wedge - Free People
| 2; Unknown | 3; Wrecker Platform - Free People | 4; PERFORMER - ASOS

still my hunger.

Sunday, January 02, 2011


snatched from; -fuckyeahfashion


Saturday, January 01, 2011


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